How I’m feeling right now. I can’t talk to my family about this-so blogging it is. Decisions have been made, I have acquiesced to these decisions despite them not being what I want, because I think they are probably best for my family. But I’m miserable. I feel like I have no future at all and I just don’t care. I’m disinterested in everything. I don’t want to do anything at all and I resent being asked to. Having a bath is a major effort. I feel everything I’ve done is a mistake, that all failures in my life have been mine solely and completely. That things would be different if I’d tried harder, been better. The whole MH17 fiasco hasn’t made me feel any better either. What is wrong with me? What is wrong with the world? What’s the point?