Guys: I am still alive

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I feel like it’s been ages! Sorry for the neglect. I am still alive, I have not met some fabulous dude and eloped, I have, however, managed to make a friend 10 years younger than me. It’s kind of confusing, And somewhat embarrassing seeing as I seem to fit in better with an 18 year old than with my peers *shrugs* I’ve signed up for the leadership group with some prompting and I’ve also signed up for a tough mudder. I have gone quietly insane I suspect. I was already struggling with time management and then I went and did that-but seizing the opportunity has been something I’ve never done. Maybe this is it? I don’t feel anymore in control than I did before and oddly enough the more people I’m in contact with the more weird about it I get: I’m all ‘do they hate me?’, ‘am I whatsapping them too much?’, ‘do they really mean that?’, ‘do they really want to hang out?’ so on and forth pretty much non-stop. It’s exhausting. And then I worry over the school work too. Round and round I go. But this is my forth week, I’ve handed in one assignment, I’ve gone to dinner with my new friend and I’m hoping to get my licence in April. I’ve also made plans for a road trip with one online friend and plans to meet another two. This is progress I guess? I don’t feel any different yet. I’m still tempted somedays just to retreat back into my comfy little shell, but then I remind myself how miserable I was there and that the world won’t wait. I want to do so many things, maybe this is the start?

Vanessa
PS when I get all super stressed out I tend to get a bit obsessive about something. In this case it’s wash tape. It’s on everything. I love it. I guess it’s not too bad as obsessions go……

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5 thoughts on “Guys: I am still alive

  1. I feel the same way!! Even though I’ve made progress, I don’t feel much different. And I definitely worry about people liking me too. I worry about annoying you when I text. I feel like maybe we should be talking about this? But then I worry about annoying you LOL. 😦

    P.S.

    Washi tape is awesome! You’ve converted me!

    P.P.S.

    I want to hang with you. πŸ™‚ Also, you’re doing pretty dang good. ❀

    • Yeah that sucks 😦 And I find the more I mix with people the more worried I am, I thought it was supposed to get easier *sigh*
      You don’t annoy me when you text! I like getting your texts, I sometimes worry I’m a bit slow getting back to you but don’;t worry about annoying me! I have volunteered to spend 4 weeks in a car with you…..obviously you can’t annoying me too much LOL Feel free to text whatever/whenever you want πŸ˜‰

      I’ve got you addicted to wash tape…..thank god its cheap eh?

      Thanks πŸ™‚

      • XD Phew! That’s good. I know it’s irrational LOL why would you go on a road trip with me if you didn’t like me? D’oh! Don’t worry about taking too long to text me, I know it’s not a bad thing. My mind does get anxious about it sometimes, but that’s not your responsibility. I get anxious about everything! And I hope I don’t take too long getting back to you. πŸ˜›

        As for the getting easier thing, I have no clue how long that’s supposed to take. 😦

        Yes, thank god!! I need MORE.

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