Long time no see everyone! Basically after my last post I was busy with final exams and then I was packing for my trip with my sister to Europe. First off I’ll tell you that I got A’s in all of my classes, in some ways I’m pretty excited about that……in others I’m not…….like can I keep it up? Was it a fluke? Is this just a really low standard? It’s not fun thinking like that but I guess I’ll find out soon enough which one it is. My motivation levels for school have been a bit low this last while and I’m not sure what to do about it.
Euro trip was really good, we went to Rome, Paris, Brussels and Amsterdam. We had heaps of fun, saw lots of cool stuff and ate lots of good food. Every time I travel I think about when I can go next, this is the first time I’ve travelled without my mum so it was a different experience-but I didn’t kill my sister so that’s an achievement! I think so far me and my mum travel best together but this proves I can still have fun with someone else. I have a trip planned with my school friend for January, it’s going to be very different again, I’m a little worried about how it’ll go but I guess I should try and find out if it works for me.
Then onto aloneness, from next week I’ll be staying on my own 3-4 nights a week. It doesn’t sound like a big deal but its pretty scary-I’ve always lived in the country, when I stayed home alone before it was in a farmhouse 7 kms from the nearest neighbour…..that would scare the snot out of a lot of people but I was so familiar it was fine. This place is a ground-floor flat in a city…..there are strange people and noises and it freaks me out-I hope I can adjust and get over it. I was hoping my school friend might stay over a bit but I don’t think thats going to happen……I have no idea how much is too much with friends, not having had any for so long I often feel my view of friendship is skewed by TV shows and movies-what’s normal? How’s it work? Hopefully I won’t stuff it up. I really need to get more comfortable being alone-I’m going to be doing a lot of it unless something changes.