Okay, okay maybe you haven’t just assumed I died because I’ve not been around. I’ve been missing for 5 months from the blogasphere though, which is shameful. Let me sum up the last 5 months: went for a one month trip to NZ with the friend-it was okay, we didn’t kill each other and we still speak, wasn’t perfect though, started uni………….been swamped with uni ever since. Uni is much harder to adjust to than I thought it would be. I don’t feel at home there, its cold and impersonal, I feel like a number. The work is mostly self guided and taught, I underestimated how much I would dislike that. I feel like my teacher is judging me for asking for an extension despite have a valid reason (hello not sleeping for a week due to anxiety), feeling judged is awful. I feel out of my depth, unsure and unhappy. I’m pushing on as I want to give it my very best shot but I’m not sure what I should do next. I figure I should at least complete the year and see then, but wow it’s hard. Finding it hard also makes me feel like a failure. Basically I’m having a hard time right now and I have no idea what to do about it. My friend moved as planned and seems to be doing much better than me, I miss her. After the upheaval this first semester has caused me I’m feeling doubtful about my prospects of surviving an exchange or working holiday. I live in hope though.
So that about sums it up.
Oh and I turned 29 and still haven’t had a boyfriend. *sigh*
Vanessa
Uni will get better. And some lecturers are just annoying, don’t let them bother you too much. Oh and I will beat you on the boyfriend part in August when I 30 :p
I really hope it does! I’ve felt like a lost sheep for most of it! Perhaps one of us will break the tradition by 31 🙂
I KNOW WHERE YOU GOT THAT TITLE FROM!!!!!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!
WATCH THE MOVIE VANESSA SO YOU CAN FREAK WITH ME WHEN THE SEQUEL COMES!
God I keep forgetting, I’ll try and watch it next week 🙂
Yeeeeee!!! I wanna watch it again LOL
P.S.
You did amazing with school, I swear! You completed the first semester! Woo!! Look at you! Go girl!!!
Thank god its over. Lets hope I survive the coming semester 😛
You will, man!!! I’m here for ya.